You inspire me with your love of life,
a life that hasn't always loved you back.
They way you hold me...
both our troubles melt away.
If only for a moment.
Things have happened,
Terrible things.
Lies were told,
lies that tore families apart.
You deserve nothing you have been handed.
Your life should be simpler.
Dealt a bad hand.
Inspiration,
beyond hope or dreams...
You shine
my love.
The brightest star in my constellation.
When all seems lost
You're there to guide me back.
Holding me.
Loving me.
I remember it all.
From the very beginning.
each movement we made.
Intertwined
From the very beginning,
Drawn, pulled, connected
unimaginable...
amazing.
Our minds are connected
Always in tune.
A bond beyond love.
Our spirits joined.
Our souls find peace.
Searching is over.
When you are near
nothing matters.
Your smile
my laugh...
peace.
bliss.
we're together
even when we are apart.
Never goodbye..
forever tomorrow.
You inspire me...
embrace.
27.4.09
24.3.09
Who am I kidding?
So Happy New Year! Four months late... oops.
Life has been so chaotic I don't know which way is up anymore. I have so much going on and nothing seems to be slowing down at all. I'm so irritated in the turn of my life the past few weeks that I just can't stand it. I'm trying to get a minute to just think and I can't... it's unpleasant.
The doctor told me I have Lupus... and then told me I don't have that... but then I did... and now I don't again. So now I'm in a very confused limbo where I'm not getting any better but there is apparently nothing wrong with me... which is troublesome, as I am sure you can imagine. At least I was finally able to get her to give me something more than motrin for pain... I've only been telling her since august that normal pain medication has no effect on me. I feel bad because I'm so impatient with this lady. See, english isn't her first language so we have quite a communication barrier to get over and we haven't been able to get past it yet. Why she is so intent on testing me for pregnancy every time I go in is beyond me.... not every 21 year old college student is just lying down with their legs spread every chance they get.
It is just very upsetting to me that she focuses on something that is obviously not the problem. Oh well... 99.9% of all lawyers give the rest a bad name and I guess thats the same for girls too.
School is winding down. I'm done with the classroom part of my degree in just 10 weeks! I could vomit I can't believe it! I'm so terrified. The locations to which I have applied for my externship are all back home. I can't wait to get back to that dry mountain air! Mmmm! It's so humid here in Atlanta... my hair is huge and stays that way all the time. Thank GOD for hair ties! My time here hasn't been a complete wash, I've made friends and made wonderful professional connections so I know that I will be able to call upon those in the future for support and advice. I've enjoyed seeing a culture completely different from my own, and I can't wait to get back to my own! haha.
I ever so often get a little pang of sadness that my time here is coming to a close. I don't want to leave the few people here that I have connected with... but then something happens (like my car getting broken into) and the small feeling passes and fades away rapidly. Not that there isn't crime back home... I just feel better equipped to handle it there.
So here is to hoping that in this new year... now one third gone already... I will come out experienced in the industry and less fearful, with an answer and a solution to my discomfort medically, and be in a happy place with a happy heart... and I just realised how lame that sounded... Oh well. I also noticed that I totally over use elipsis..es.. elipsi? You know what I mean. Three dots in a row at the end of a sentence or thought indicating a pause, much like a coma does... only apparently easier to type or something.
Hope you all are happy and in love with life and it's many blessings... I'm glad we talked about this ;)
embrace.
Life has been so chaotic I don't know which way is up anymore. I have so much going on and nothing seems to be slowing down at all. I'm so irritated in the turn of my life the past few weeks that I just can't stand it. I'm trying to get a minute to just think and I can't... it's unpleasant.
The doctor told me I have Lupus... and then told me I don't have that... but then I did... and now I don't again. So now I'm in a very confused limbo where I'm not getting any better but there is apparently nothing wrong with me... which is troublesome, as I am sure you can imagine. At least I was finally able to get her to give me something more than motrin for pain... I've only been telling her since august that normal pain medication has no effect on me. I feel bad because I'm so impatient with this lady. See, english isn't her first language so we have quite a communication barrier to get over and we haven't been able to get past it yet. Why she is so intent on testing me for pregnancy every time I go in is beyond me.... not every 21 year old college student is just lying down with their legs spread every chance they get.
It is just very upsetting to me that she focuses on something that is obviously not the problem. Oh well... 99.9% of all lawyers give the rest a bad name and I guess thats the same for girls too.
School is winding down. I'm done with the classroom part of my degree in just 10 weeks! I could vomit I can't believe it! I'm so terrified. The locations to which I have applied for my externship are all back home. I can't wait to get back to that dry mountain air! Mmmm! It's so humid here in Atlanta... my hair is huge and stays that way all the time. Thank GOD for hair ties! My time here hasn't been a complete wash, I've made friends and made wonderful professional connections so I know that I will be able to call upon those in the future for support and advice. I've enjoyed seeing a culture completely different from my own, and I can't wait to get back to my own! haha.
I ever so often get a little pang of sadness that my time here is coming to a close. I don't want to leave the few people here that I have connected with... but then something happens (like my car getting broken into) and the small feeling passes and fades away rapidly. Not that there isn't crime back home... I just feel better equipped to handle it there.
So here is to hoping that in this new year... now one third gone already... I will come out experienced in the industry and less fearful, with an answer and a solution to my discomfort medically, and be in a happy place with a happy heart... and I just realised how lame that sounded... Oh well. I also noticed that I totally over use elipsis..es.. elipsi? You know what I mean. Three dots in a row at the end of a sentence or thought indicating a pause, much like a coma does... only apparently easier to type or something.
Hope you all are happy and in love with life and it's many blessings... I'm glad we talked about this ;)
embrace.
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